IN THE JAWS OF THE BLACK DOG: Part 3

Autism has left me in ruins sometimes emotionally -- many times socially, and yet as the artist, I have soared to the highest ground it has shown me I feel. The risk-taker, the expanded vision, the imagination journey as visuals are my chosen language. The ability to see something so very complex and decipher it and und4erstanding its meaning. Collaboration with other artists has produced works by me but not me solely.  Objets d'art I would not have been able to accomplish alone. I am a gifted painter in my own right, and I say that without any false modesty. Autism has made me quite visual in my learning and expression of myself...

Hydroxychloroquine

From the research that used to be, until dragged down and sent down the memory hole -- Hydroxychloroquine was the godsend for COVID sufferers, but hell that cure won't work and the Lancet study said it caused heart problems until they redacted the whole paper. A little bird tells me these studies are bought and paid for by...the usual suspects, *wink wink*. One needs a new very expensive thoroughly researched messenger RNA vaccine glowing a fluorescent blue as it is eased into your veins. Its RNA messenger code splices into your genetic makeup and implant itself in the library of you, and voila' you're body is a factory producing your own medicine. WOW...that's exactly what I want to be. A little medicine factory producing what? Forever. With my genetics all whacky now. I'll be glowing in the dark and want to hang around with bats...

IN THE JAWS OF THE BLACK DOG: Part 1

Being autistic is a highly volatile condition to be involved with as a human -- of course involved would intend one's participation, willingly, intentionally. That is both wrong and right. I have no choice really in the matter. I am autistic, it is me. But then again I know who I am.   Autism is difficult to describe from a personal point of view. From that deeply personal point of view. Some days its world ending and others it is magic; an affliction sometimes, a life-long confrontation with reality -- and if asked I would prefer not to have it -- and yet again, I absolutely cannot see myself in any other way, and being autistic and different is something I would miss if I was neuro-typical (whatever that terrible term means). I believe it has something to do with linear thinking. Convergent as opposed to divergent in the thinking process. Study shows a threatened and shortened lifespan in most cases for those with autism -- ASD, Asperger's. That is a considerably shortened lifespan. And what I mean by that is, that the high functioning autistic adult is averaged at a lifespan of about 54 years old, forty years old if that autistic is unable to speak or communicate...

WHO (World Health Organization)

The WHO (World Health Organization) an extension of the UN (United Nations), a specialized agency of the UN, has been around since the original League of Nations the precursor of the modern UN. The WHO governing structure, its principled and the main objective is too, "the attainment by all peoples of the highest possible level of health." The WHO, has 194 member nations, and from those members it elects 34 members to an Executive Board, these are health specialists according to the WHO website. It relies on a budget of $5.5 Billion up from $4.2 Billion as of 2018, with recent contribution by individuals like Bill Gates and Bill and the Melinda Gates Foundation pushing that figure even higher. These 'health experts' inform the greater number of countries involved with WHO, of the needs of its member states...

Poem: BREAKER BOY

by Michael Burns The newsies and the match girls, and the breakerboys in back. They toiled away their little lives to keep their mamma's happy. Six days a week they left their youth inside the warmth you purchased, and easy reads from newsie feeds that salted your accounts...

What do you think AI is all about?

Individual spirit -- they just don't get it. You speak about spirit as the real self, and you get that look from them that you get from your dog when your playing an harmonica. Spirit is about freedom, and freedom is not outside, I find it is inside me. And I have no idea why I keep forgetting that. Oh yeah... stimulus-response. And so the question came up the other day, from my friend Jon Rappoport. It was based around freedom and the loss of it. Now, I must say Jon is an excellent fellow and after reading him for decade or so, I am convinced now that I am not crazy, that the world that we live is a manufactured reality, that there is a massive industry that 24 hours a day, 365 days a year toils to came our minds enslaved...

POEM: WHAT NEXT!

Eight-carbon molecules in rivers of waste, and the sun in a sack cloth hauls itself up again into the sky. And looks down in disgust at what was…a good idea. These mayfly lives, passing through and piling up, one upon the other as sediments on the basement of this world. Built up in that wake of seconds upon seconds. Relent. Red cushion for a place to sit, amidst rancor. Nihilism for a heart, and reluctance. And crazed mystics still keep pushing shopping carts up hills of abuse...

Virus: What is the reason for COVID?

"If all the insects were to disappear from the earth, within 50 years all life on earth would end. If all human beings disappeared from the earth, within 50 years all forms of life would flourish."  -- Jonas Salk “At the highest levels of the medical cartel, vaccines are a top priority because they cause a weakening of the immune system. I know that may be hard to accept, but its true. The medical cartel, at the highest level, is not out to help people, it is out to harm them, to weaken them. To kill them. At one point in my career, I had a long conversation with a man who occupied a high government position in an African nation. He told me that he was well aware of this. He told me that WHO [World Health Organization] is a front for these depopulation interests” ― Jon Rappoport interview with ex-vaccine Researcher Pandemics...very scary. Why would nature create such things, when the majority of higher lifeforms are so beautiful, like humans and the rest of the animal kingdom. All other mammals thrive in the natural, but humans are sickened and diseased by what cause? Might there be a reason for a virus if it exists? I mean positive life-affirming reason for a virus, that has been overlooked or pushed to the side by greedy scientists, and a very powerful medical establishment and powerful corporations?...

Reluctant Warrior

Finding courage... It is rare to find the poetry of thought as it free flows from our divine consciousness with a presentation of what we have witnessed in our lives. Jade hangs on me from the strife of seeking goodness in this world, I ache all the time for what might have been...

ANGELA LOIJ: The Selk’nam Genocide

Today my mind is occupied with strange thoughts, they don't seem to be my own...I have written this tale before only to delete it. Out of some sense of shock or disbelief. Shame. Maybe pain at how outrageous we are as a species. Maybe because I didn't want to remember something like this...or possibly it stimulates my imagination to wonder how many times this has happened, in the past; long forgotten tribes of people wiped out in genocides for the sake of progress and the industrialization of the world. And will it continue to happen. In my lifetime there have been the genocides by forced drought on African people, and so they die of starvation. There have been illegal wars like that of Iraq which has killed a million of the citizens of that country, and the purposeful brutal and bloody genocide in Rwanda in the mid nineties....